Alone

All alone I sit here,
All these emotions are making me fear,
My troubled mind begins to think about so much,
My body only longs for him to touch,
Maybe if only I could of trusted him enough,
Instead, I just bottle it all inside which is so very tough,
Than, one day my bottle will have too much and it will explode,
This will make me very bitter and cold when I am old,
Do you think he even cares,
He is more concerned on trying to keep things between everyone else fair,
When in actuality it is my heart that he slowly tears,
Is it because he is embarrassed,
Afraid that maybe I will make him out to be an ass,
I feel so alone, I must some how break free,
Peace of mind I again need to be,
I need to worry about myself only,
Even if this means that I have to be lonely,
You are just wasting your time here,
I need to escape and let my clouded head become some what clear,
He does not know what he wants either, he does not have the slightest clue,
On what or how to do it, all I know is that through all of this drama I must some how be true!