Both Sides of the Same Mind

Everything is better than it ever has been,
Stating alive? I'm not too keen,
I'm alive, and well, happier now,
As I walk the halls, I keep my head in a bow,
I haven't been sad in a real long time,
Every hallway is the slowest steepest climb,
I never want to leave this nirvana,
I've never been offered any mana.

Every second there is a brand new dawn,
Where has all of my love gone?
I sway to the music in my head,
My heart feels like a cold block of lead,
As I bop around as cheery as ever,
Could I ever be outgoing? Never,
Nothing will ever bring me down,
When will someone say that I'm the love they've found?

I cannot wait until tomorrow,
I feel like I'm at an ultimate low,
So I can remember today as yesterday,
I feel the blood rush as I lay,
Memories are sweet and sour but mostly pretty,
My basic excuse and attempt for pity,
They never fade and never need to be covered,
My soul, about my head, hovered.

I look to the sky and realize nothing is bad,
But I'm always so fucking mad,
I'm always happy, I'm always happy,
Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you!