i dont give a fuckin g shitb

twisted hand fell against your back. finger prints imbed themselves one level of irratation for tonight. blood speckled knife in the grasp of the gasp of breath coming from the girl standing over the light. she thought it was something else. screams in alleys lead to rape not this. blood splatters on her face and she falls on her knees. scraped skin under gravel. face torn back uncovering my secret pleasure, when the skin pulled off slowly, to see the young girl scream. the naked face of a newborn misery a certain kind of chaos leaves my mouth when the drugs don't kick in. needle through my eyes of vicodin maybe the pain can shoot itself up towards other veins. my leg lost feeling, i can laugh right. my foot caught in the kind of irreparable mess. the smile on my face twists up through uncovered muscle and blood drips from where it stretched too far. my hands reach for something. anything but reach no purpose but raving hands in the pit. lights flash brighter you see when needles stick in your eye and reflect light off screaming girls into complex webs of skin tearing under the force of one smirk, a spoken word. lips streatching back against teeth, jaw clenched. down another shot of drink. you think it is vodka and something else. it slides down your throat like razors. cuts your insides out and bursts the heart. splash! some liquid is covering your pants. shit you bought these yesterday with the last of your cash and the liquid is red dye under your fingernails. trying to crawl through streets, nals scraping against rock trying to pull your mangled mess/body out from under the pressure. like a mattress lying on your chest. trying to breath through holes in your throat. too many ciggarettes. i cough and lift the mattress but it falls at twice the weight. blanket of medication locks the muscles in.

fuck fuck fuckFUCK  O FUCKING BREAK SOMETHI WDHSEBFNG AND HEAR IT SNAP AND WATCH THE DAMAGE FUCK LY LIFE

i'M DONE nvim fucking shit