Wish

Why are you doing this,
Growing up I only had one wish,
And that was to grow up and find a good man,
One that would be a loving, devoted and be able to understand,
Someone who I could share my life with until the very end,
A Man that I could totally put all my trust into, someone to be my best friend,
On cold winter days,
In front of the fireplace our naked bodies would lay,
As we explored each others bodies in foreplay,
And to be able to say whatever we wanted to say,
I thought I found that man, but now I am not so certain,
For my heart and body you keep on hurting,
You may not want to believe this,
But, the truth is you have, maybe I should leave you and than you will miss,
No more goofy me to bug you, nor my tender lips will you get to kiss,
For I will move so far away from here,
No matter how big my fear,
But, at least I will have made my finale decision,
After my heart and mind has to go through any more confusion,
I know that we tried everything that we could,
But, I guess all along we were both misunderstood,
A person can only handle so much,
Before having to leave before I lose my touch,
I will always love you,
No matter what we have done, I still know this all to be true,
I am sorry our dream of finally saying I do,
Well, I am afraid that my heart will cherish our time together,
I should have stayed away from men like you, I should have listened to my mother!