Caught Up

Tired of pining over a love that was never mine
My love for you was all heart, but I existed solely in your mind  
I thought that you were the code for my universal design  
I can't get the image of you as cosmic love embodied out of my mind  

Soaring through my life colliding with both mind and heart  
I kept entering your vortex being ripped apart  
What you consider love, was like a meteor shower  
Constantly pounding me, draining me of all powers  

The strength that I need to function as a normal being  
A force like you was never before in existence seen  
You took me back to when existence was a dot  
The word Yes was given and my soul was caught  
  
But my soul was immature, having never been disembodied  
And it was tortured and abused once you finally caught it  
Shit the flesh could hear as it's soul screamed  
As you show it your true self shattering it's dreams  
  
To have it crawl back to weak to unify with it's flesh  
It's bound for limbo, while my flesh faces death  
Crawling together towards a mirror's portal  
We crawl through to the outside only to become mortal  
  
Reunited, soul and flesh, bounded as one  
Sitting in front of this mirror, both wrist bleeding, is how it begun  
I've taken some many pills, why not take another one  
Since I'm stuck here on earth and can't embrace the sun  
  
Yes the pain was there, but now I realize it was oh so sweet  
The games that you played, I realize that I needed the deceit  
My soul, my flesh, being drained of power  
We both now long for you to drain us of power  
  
I'm simply closing my eyes to feel the sting of your touch  
As you claw at my soul for enjoying it to much  
You sing the songs that the sirens sang  
My soul and I succumb and we're caught up again