I don't understand....

The pain in my chest
and my heart.
it hurts so bad.
Like someone hit me
there with a hammer.
i can't breathe.
I keep crying
and i can't stop.
No matter what i
do i always fail you.
My head hurts
i feel dizzy
my throat burns.
Why make me choose?
Of course between
you, the person i love,
and doing something i love
i'd choose you..
but... why couldn't i do both?
Long distance relationship..
If i got to do what i want..
You'd only not be able to talk
to me from 3:30 to 5:30
two hours... only three days
a week..
I love you... but...
i wish you would...
could trust me..
i want to do this
it'd be good for me..
but... you threaten
that it's you i stay with
or i go to that practice...
I guess we don't always
get what we wish for...
when it's so simple..
I'll never understand this...
Love is such a challenge...
Guess i should've known
that you have to give up
things you want for love...