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Forget this life.
I'm sorry I thought I could do this I thought that I had this.. against this against my demons but they seem to be winning ever since you left I can't breathe the world around me is crumbling slowly..the air around me is suffocating me what's left in this world if I don't have you?
Nothing this silence is painful painfully killing me..I watched you take your last breath..what's it for me take my last step..? Step to be with you again. You were my world my everything you taught me how to do everything except fight my demons...and theses demons are nothing like I experienced before.
"You're weak, come on let's do it this week" they said. "Just hang from your neck you're a wreck" they said. No one will miss you unlike her. You're nothing compared to the mother that you'll never become never will be a mother they said. Fuck this I can't do this. Fuck this world fuck everything. Already cut out the rest. No one will be there. No one will be at your memorial. FUCK THIS IM DEAD.. Your husband will reject he said nothing will protect you. You're a joke go ahead and choke.. choke on this life that you thought was perfect but it was the life that crept on you to take your soul lol You're so dull. Go ahead take You're last breath You're meeting death.
Nothing this silence is painful painfully killing me..I watched you take your last breath..what's it for me take my last step..? Step to be with you again. You were my world my everything you taught me how to do everything except fight my demons...and theses demons are nothing like I experienced before.
"You're weak, come on let's do it this week" they said. "Just hang from your neck you're a wreck" they said. No one will miss you unlike her. You're nothing compared to the mother that you'll never become never will be a mother they said. Fuck this I can't do this. Fuck this world fuck everything. Already cut out the rest. No one will be there. No one will be at your memorial. FUCK THIS IM DEAD.. Your husband will reject he said nothing will protect you. You're a joke go ahead and choke.. choke on this life that you thought was perfect but it was the life that crept on you to take your soul lol You're so dull. Go ahead take You're last breath You're meeting death.
Published 26th Jun 2022
Author's Note
After my mom died this is how I feel especially since I found out I possibly can't have kids.
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- Edited 29th May 2023 7:45am
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5th Oct 2023 3:51pm
It's an extremely tough situation you have been through. Are these negative words, words you have spoken to yourself as a way of punishing your low self esteem or the words of others? Obviously it's a very personal subject & isn't any of my business but I ask because I just wanted to gain some context from your poem.
