Secret Smile

A friend was in trouble      
rent and job and bills      
and that useless ex of hers
     
- so I brought wine      
you know the red kind      
which didn't taste all that great at first      
but the second glass was smoother      
and the third was positively divine
     
- but I digress      
which happens when I'm drunk
      
- so we were just sitting on the couch      
talking about nothing really      
just being friends      
when she leaned close and kissed me      
a tentative kiss and very hesitant      
with a child like expression      
with hope and scare and worry      
biting her bottom lip
     
- I'd never been kissed by a girl before      
a full grown women actually      
I thought it would be like kissing my sister      
but it wasn't      
it was so much more      
tasting her slowly exhaled breath      
inhaling her scent      
not like my sister at all
     
- she was scared and I was drunk      
and she needed me      
so I kissed her back      
a long, slow, tender kiss      
and then we just melted into each other
     
- she touched my tit      
holy shit I'm on fire      
this just isn't right      
I'm not supposed to be turned on      
this is how I feel with men      
but I am turned on      
with this person so like me
     
- I don't know who touched who next      
she says I did but I honestly couldn't say      
I'm so wet      
and kind of embarrassed      
yet it feels so natural      
just wanting to be held      
within that embrace my world opened up      
I found warmth and gentleness and caring      
and I didn't have to pretend  
    
- nothing was forced and nothing was fake      
no fumbling we weren't in a rush        
when I came it was almost a surprise      
not really but you know      
just intense need      
and a moaning release      
endorphins my sweet sweet friends
     
- who knew      
I would fall in love      
but it didn't last      
we barely speak anymore      
she got back together with her ex
      
- shit
     
- but I still remember that first kiss      
as I grin my secret smile      
and FYI i still like men just fine