who am i

i’ve lost my sense of self,
my sense of reality went with it.
what’s real? what’s fake?
who am i?

i fear that mental help,
will make me lose myself further.
what if who i am,
is all because of my illness.

when i look in the mirror,
who am i looking at?
is that how others see me?
is that who i really am?

when people like me,
is it for the real me?
or is it for the me that my illness made up,
the me that i created from the trauma.

when i get the help i need,
will everyone leave?
will i change?
who will i become?

who am i?
who was i meant to be?
is this the real me?
am i real?