Reality or Insanity

I'm torn between the world of reality and the world of insanity
I've lost site of the light
I can't tell weather things are  imaginative or if there real
Stumbling through darkness trying to find a way out
I fall once i get up i trip twice i get up
I'm trying to find reality
But i feel warn and beaten, My scars burn, My body shakes
I'm scared that insanity is taking me over, but i don't want it to..
But it's like I have no choice..
The voices start to talk and cloud around me
My body trembles i want this nightmare of insanity to end..
The voices say that I'm not worthy of reality..
But the choice is not my own
I start to claw at my arm making it bleed the insanity has taken me over
I can not control what i say i can't control my emotions
Why must i suffer this endless pain
I want reality back because at least it let me be free.....