I Could've been.

 It's weird to think how things could've turned out if I had taken a different path.
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I could've been in staying in the hottie's room
I could've been the kid who was hooked on playing Doom.
I could've walked brighton's shore with you emo girl hand in hand.
I could've lost you and be swallowed by the sand.
I could've been the red rambling about the working man.
I could've been the bold party animal still living at home
I could've left for who knows where and been all alone.
I could've been the 9 -5er in Edinburgh's bustle.
I could've marched with them that day, mimiced Bertrand Russell.
I could've been up for election as I had planned, become a naive politician
I could've stayed with them, living a life of permission.
I could've been unaware of all the horror, kept my eyes closed.
I could've been and felt alive in a circle of light instead of failing to write stilted prose.
He could've never hit me in the nose...
I could've never suffered in that rain.
I could've never be in the wrong place and avoid all that pain.
I could've lived differently and still felt the same...
I could've lived that day without the ashes on the hill.
I could be where I was 3 years ago just now,even still.
I could've been the drifter, world ignored.
I could've drunk and whored.
I could've been there with the bible quoting Matthew.
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But I didn't.Maybe I never would've....