scratched

Don't forget to add
 a notch
 to the belt.

Write a list of
 names and
 scratch them all
 out

And never
 ever
 forget
 what the fuck
 you wrote
 down.

Don't forget
 to smile
 through
 their
 tell.

The lies and
 excuses
 are leaving a stain
 on the
 marble topped
 surface
 that you know
 you paid for

Because they all
 want
 a little
 and
 it always adds up.

The mountain of shit
 you do
 just to get offered
 nothing
 in return
 and
 its all too much.
 So shut em out.

Too little
 too late
 and now I'm getting
 thicker-headed,
 and skinned
 and I'll be careful in
 the future
 with what kind of
 people
 I
 fucking try to
 share myself with.