tenuous

 
the lows come easy
the good times at a price
to understand happiness
you have to be tortured sometimes

to know love you must also know loneliness
I've been deprived of love
so I appreciate it

human contact so tenuous
how I relate to people is according to what I know
I've known pain intimately
it makes me grateful for the beautiful days
I know they can slip away into the shadows
where hurt makes everything grey
and I forget what it's like to be hungry

ache is a state of mind
I try to make the best of every day
even a terrible one has it's merits
to teach a lesson the the stubborn hearted
information that allows me experiences
elevating me to another level of knowledge

fear so often keeps this from happening
when the mind and the soul fail to connect there is emptiness
I am growing in understanding so I can feel everything
and in my tiny way giving back what I have taken

beauty grows even in darkness
so I rest in the shade so I can shine in the light
an energy turning in the eternal
becoming more a companion and less a child