Angrylove

 
I guess there is rage here, too.
I guess I’m not safe
from falling so deep in love with you you become my lifeline
Despite my best attempts not to depend on you
Not to cause you too much stress

Because you’re everyone’s voodoo doll
Tugged in each direction.
I’m so sorry
To be one of them.
I just
Care for you.
I think I
Really do.
Because I love your son
As much as you do,

And I’m terrified
For a fight
To unfold
In front of him
When it’s not so easy as
Sneaking back home
And pickin up your dog
And climbing back out the window

Safe down the street
From the house she locked you
Inside.

I don’t know
What to do with this.
I’m pissed
That I truly love you
And I show it right
And she still will get your days and nights.

It is stupid,
But my guts are spilled,
My ribs are open,
My insides glisten.