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Love yourself for who you are and others will as well..what we see is just an idiom, your true self is inside shown through your heart!!!

True words Tim. Cultivating self-love has been a challenge, but I’ll never stop trying.

"...i still wanted
even then
even more
even less..."
Grabs and holds.
Some of us walk a thin line. I thinks sometimes she wants to disappear.

I’ve often felt as though I was a ghost, wishing to hide, to become so thin as to vanish completely, to be erased. I understand this now as dissociation. I’ve had an eating disorder in one form or another for around 20 years, and at the age of 32 now, the long-term consequences are starting to manifest. I hope I can make a stronger recovery soon, but for now at least I’m eating again.

Thank you for connecting on this piece javalini, I admire your work as well.

Self acceptance is such a complex process,
is it may be  called a processs...

I deeply marvel at your presence of mind,
to know where you have been and how it was, comparing and contrasting...

Informing your perspective...

The self awareness.

Like knowing that the grass was never greener.

I think maybe most people live their lives thinking the grass is greener,
but then some...

Break through that,
toward a deeper wisdom...

I think that such forms of wisdom can
lead to a deeper peace...

And I hope it is thus for you.

Eating disorders are very complicated. I recently tried to participate in a virtual group-therapy for it, but found I was unable to complete the course. My ED is strongly tied to self-harm, insomnia, and a major distorted self-image (of both psyche & form).   I’m thankful to have now stepped back into some level of sanity from my latest episode of restricting intake, but there is still much healing to be done. I think I’ve cycled through restriction, bulimia, and binging enough times to have developed the level of self awareness expressed in this poem.

I’m grateful for your support on the subject, thank you Cipher 🙏