A LITTLE BIT PARTIALLY    (12-4-2003, 12:30am, Galveston Island, Texas)

     
so hard      
to cast away      
all this      
my so called      
by some      
but mostly by those      
who dont even      
know me      
at all      
selfish senselessness      
of not really needing      
feeling      
nor wanting      
to compromise      
all i am      
just to better      
fit in      
like them      
but now      
my responsibility      
is to myself      
alone      
help me      
i think      
im falling      
out of love      
with being human      
again      
but hopefully by      
tomorrow morning      
i may wake up      
feeling      
just a little bit      
differently      
than i do here now      
thinking perhaps      
that maybe      
theres some truth      
to what  theyve      
been thinking      
and saying      
about me      
for years      
both to my face      
and behind my back      
as well      
in their audibly      
whispered      
rolled eyed      
open fears      
and their hostile      
public sneers      
in that perhaps      
i might be      
only  just      
a little bit      
partially      
somewhat  slightly      
but at least      
uniquely      
and rightfully      
proudly      
just a tad bit      
creatively      
insane      
for simply being      
true      
to myself      
all      
along    
in my free spirited      
paths      
spiritually      
awakened      
restless journeys      
essential      
unfolding      
thus      
far    
so even if    
that should    
mean    
i must continue    
to live out    
my lifes ongoing    
seemingly    
predestined journey    
to its very end    
always feeling    
and being    
so perpetually    
misplaced    
misunderstood
unknown   
and alone    
as such    
a mysteriously fated    
singular island    
of one    
as my life s predestined    
lonesome fate    
at this point    
in my life    
then i am    
willing    
to accept    
live out    
and trust    
that in so doing    
my souls    
life mission    
and true    
purpose    
this time around    
will also mysteriously    
play itself out
and be successfully
fulfilled
in that way
as it was meant to
this time around  
i suppose  
to eventually grow    
and become    
ever more clear    
to me here    
before its time    
has run out    
to be    
more fully    
self realized    
effectively fulfilled    
and done  
should that  
predestined fate  
still come
to play itself out
over however
much more time
i may or may not
have left
in my present
lifetime s journey
here in this world
then that
still nonetheless  
will be just fine    
with    
me