Hate

I hate the way you made me feel
From princess to pauper
From class to ruin
A mate of convenience
A lover who hates you
A thorn in my side
A scorn like dry ice
So resentful--I want to ruin your life
A man I admired to a man I despise
Once I adored you, it was in my eyes
A naive mind, a wounded heart
Ensured I'd fall for your charm
And your jokes,
your lips spoke flattery of the smoothest sorts
Intimacy rooted strong like an oak tree
to loyalty fleeting like leaves in a breeze
Soft on me like a fresh fallen snow
Your lies as deep as a volcano
that turns everything to ash
and I never heeded the warning about your soul being black.
I hate the way you made me feel and I hate even more your feelings weren't real
But what angers me even more than that is the years I can never get back.
I should take it as a lesson learned
But i can't seem to get past the hurt
I hate that I believed you and I hate you didn't even try
And I hate you gave up so easily and I hate how much you lied. I hate your narcissism and how you shoulder mistakes
And I hate that I meant so little that you wouldn't wait.
I hate that you expected more than you were ever willing to give and I hate that I don't hate you the way that I have every reason to and
I hate that I hate me-- more than I hate you.