It has always been this way

it has always been this way  
just wanting to play  
an undefined want  
maybe I'll flaunt  
sometimes I'll taunt  
to get what I need  
my ego to feed  
it all seemed so simple  
how I use my dimples  
offering dreams  
dirty or clean  
to beguile by degree  
a bitch without pedigree  
trying to be something more  
as I'm kicked out the door  
after your hot breath has cooled  
I was never really fooled  
never giving my heart  
is tearing me apart  
but I'm not sure how  
to love just now  
it has always been this way  
yet I hope for the day  
when love can be given  
instead of traded and riven