Paranoid

Hi Mr. Invincible!
I'm Mr. Paranoid
Sometimes, I feel invisible
Wherever I occupy feels void
"Why so serious?"
Perhaps I want to escape the present
And get lost in my thoughts

"Nobody understands me"
Even I do not understand me
High and exhilarated there
Low and exhausted here
Tired
Fed up
Hopeful

Shall I say it is hope?
Or it is just a means to elope
Far beyond my thoughts I may say
The fear of failure left far away
Lost in each moment
But can not stay lost
They never want you to go
But never give you a reason to stay.

Not suicidal
Not suicidal

But shall we just end it all