insanity: a monologue

"I love you.
I don't know where I'd be without you."

You never cared.
Nobody
Ever
Does

...

"Hey I appreciate you."

Just admit you fucking hate me.

Why do you hate me?

...

"You can tell people no.
Stand up for yourself."

Why you gotta be like that?

...

"I'm human, I'm gonna make mistakes."

Who gives a fuck they fucking deserved it.

...

"Hey, I'm sorry. I know I was out of line."

Here, take my knife and just stab yourself in the neck.

...

"You never want to do anything with me."

fuck your scrabble, fuck your artwork,
fuck your adhd, fuck your disassociation,
fuck your job, fuck all the bills you pay by yourself,
fuck your right to say no, fuck your right to safety in your own home,
fuck you fuck you fuck you

...

"This is the last time you're ever gonna see me"

Hey I forgot my charger.
Hey I forgot my tire gauge.
Hey I still have random clothes in your house.
Hey the other person wouldn't put up with my bullshit either

Oh yeah, I'm spending the night again.
 I'm going to disintegrate into a tantrum if you ask me to leave.
And I'll keep it going all night /i]

...

"I love you. You're such a beautiful person. I'd do anything for you."

[i]I feel so unwanted. Everybody fucking hates me.
My life is in shambles so everyone else should drop
their grown adult lives to pander to my insecurities

...

*Brain explodes*