A Sad Repeating Trend

Shoot for a star
My dad said
As many as there are
Even a blind man can hit one
But
I’m not my dad
I’m aiming for the moon
My chances of hitting that
Is slim to none
But I don’t settle for the easy
I never give up
Though I might
Speak of it
I love hard
Why break ups
Hurt me so
But I think big
Though my confidence
Falls in between
I do love someone
With all of my heart
Someone
Someone dear to me
I try to make her smile
Every chance I get
Do things
Even I
Surprise myself
Like sing
Me
Hell no
But she asked
And I did
Surprisingly
She loved it
Maybe a hidden talent
But only her and I
Will ever hear my voice
But I feel bad
A disagreement we had
It’s not her fault
It’s me
Always me
My low self esteem
Gets the best of me
Finding something little
And then I run
But my feet is tired
I been running
All of my life
But in this situation
I made her sad
I never wanted to do that
I promise you that
And I promised her
I would never leave
Or hurt her again
But like always
I did
I’m not a monster
Whom preys on women’s
Feelings
I feel so bad
Woke up this morning
In a sad mood
Why did I react
And say
I had to leave
And today
Is her father’s birthday
And I kept her up
With my hardheaded shenanigans
I apologize
I really do
But she doesn’t like
Hearing
I’m sorry
Because it’s only words
And I agree with her
Because I’m a prime example
Saying
What I wasn’t going to do
But I did
And I just want
My Bestie
To be how we were
Before I spoke
I would give anything
To see her beautiful smile
Once again
But I’m
Willing to wait
Because today
Isn’t a good day
Not on her father’s birthday
But one day after this
I hope for the best
And if she
Never speaks to me again
I will be
Prepared for the worst….
I really do
I love you 💕