olly olly oxen free

 
she vies for attention
at every single turn
the spotlight shining center
any and all adulation
constant and consistently
a must have
to breathe properly
to inhale and exhale unnoticed
would be worse
than not breathing at all
reinforcing her existence
is paramount
by praise and conjured respect
compounded by daddy issues
abuse
mental health struggles
that force derelict desperation
driving a need deep
intensely ingrained
infused, inexorably
feeding a hungry sense of uselessness
when love is utterly withheld
intentionally
perhaps sitting on the cusp
of a form of forever love
being taken away
permanently
left living in darkness
orphaned by all
clinging to shreds of idolization
some semblance of worth
when fear of irrelevance traverses
to find nothing
to shine light upon




as a shadow
fades
to black