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Pretty Monsters

“... my mind having now created monsters around every corner.” - Christoper Coleman

A skeptical outlook developed in the dark nature of life and the deplorable choices pretty monsters make
Learning first to believe in the depraved part of human nature over a brighter more positive outlook
Experiences strengthened the black and white perceptions of their world around them
Believing pretty monsters wait just around the corner all the time

Dubiously thinking that evil people outweigh good people
Struggling to think the best of people when betrayal has been a common experience
Turning the corners of life
Secure in the belief of evil lurking in the shadows
Cementing mistrustful thinking patterns despite the damage to relationships

Evil creating a circle to trap me in
Beginning with a tentative hope for the best
Spinning into a familiar distrust of the good in people
Leading intuition to whisper warnings
Remembering all the evil that has infected my life
Providing clear disturbing examples to compare current relations with
And the sick circle completes only to begin again

Pretty monsters impatiently waiting around the bend to dance with me
Spinning and twirling with pretty monsters
Trapped in a feedback loop of hell
Written by Jadedembers (Starving demons)
Published
Author's Note
The fallout of my abuse as a child had developed PTSD and comorbid BPD. Some days this is what it feels like. The dark part of the world and the sinister people. How my BPD skews my perception of black and white. Then while that is happening I am constantly on edge waiting for monsters (toxic people) to appear.
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