Doltish LOL

Boy look how you have me doltish,
wanting you to ruin everything I stand for    
and go against everything I believe.    
I can’t think straight    
I am not the type to fall head over heels  
more so heels, over…. Head, wink, wink  
feeling unclear    
yet here we are,    
you came around    
and now I'm questioning all my morals    
ready to risk it all    
just to have a taste of you,    
and I can’t help this burning desire  
to watch you wreck my life with your honesty  
cause you made it clear to me  
we want different things    
but every day is torture,    
every day is like  
an eternity standing in scorching deserts  
feeling thirsty as fuck    
with nothing but    
moisture between my thighs and pulsating clip    
on high alert ready and waiting for you pull the trigger    
but you won’t,    
won’t give me the chance to bestow upon you    
pleasure you've never known    
the chance to have you hooked on me    
the way I am on you,    
boy you have me so doltish  
and what makes it funny
 is I fucking know better    
 lmfao