Purging

My heart knocks ceremoniously
With blood thudding in my eardrums.
The devil writhes in my body
To the sound of razor scraping glass.
A man's touch ablaze on my skin
Twists me into violent ventures
Leaping into a lonely love
Turning me inward to the darkest desires
They tear me open and I bleed
I bleed out my heart, my soul, because of the truth.
Sweet pain
Sweet, heavenly pain!
"Yes, Master" I submit to my demons in vain
Till my blood runs out and I have no more
No more love left in my heart
Only emptiness
So if you purge me, this rotten core, my very foundation...
Let me savor it, even if the pain itself kills me
Let me cling to the stake on fire
Let me burn,
It is my choice,
My one desire.
So leave me be
Let my soul be free.
"And still, I rise"