In the end, life fucks us all…

The tenderness within your heart always terrified me, and it’s longing held me captive until I couldn’t cope anymore, and I don’t speak of pain for it exposes my fragility, yet I find myself right back where I started.  

Kneeling upon your altar whilst aching for the drift of your gentle kiss to sway my way as you draw the breath right out of my heart & soul, and the nature of your godliness is found in the forest as we frolic’d beneath the sun with cascading waterfalls, and all that hunger to be entwined with you, comes rushing back.  
 
Your aura is magnetic, however, it’s probable that you emit the kind of energy that is missing within me. I lost count of all the relationships that failed to thrive because my gaze was fixated on looking at you, knowing they’d always fall short because no heart is like yours.  
 
Sometimes, I have to turn away so you don’t catch me basking in the sunlight in the morning with tears streaming whilst mourning things we couldn’t quite grasp but wanted to have & hold with all our might yet couldn’t breathe life into one another, beyond the page.  
 
You will always be the sweetest most tantalising fragrance of love for the purity of your intentions whilst I beckoned you playfully, still leave me gasping for breath.  
 
We never said goodbye, it’s always been a see you later because you’ll always be embedded deep within my heart & soul, and the torture of distance & the endless pining to touch the heat of your flame, rendered me even more hollow.  
 
And nothings changed for me, I’m still that girl that’s been carved from the inside out from things best left unspoken.  
 
In the end, life fucks us all, and it doesn’t matter which way. It just does. So. Enjoy the little things, don’t take things for granted, be kind and enjoy basking in the sunlight because life is short.