I Am Hectic, Joyless Chaos

Backwards evolution in action
Consume to live
Live to consume
Smoke 1,000 cigarettes, then melt the ashtray down and smoke that too
Inhale 15 burgers, vomit, inhale 15 more
The commercials direct me
T.V. is my emotional handicap
Buy! Sell! I’m in Hell!
How many material items can I hoard?
My collection grows and grows and groans
Never enough!
I bitch and moan
Everything that glitters turns to mold
It’s all about me
It’s a dog eat dog world and I eat dogs for breakfast
Love thy neighbor, I stuffed mine in a wood chopper
Snort the line, commit the crime, do the time with a reluctant smile
Drink the entire bar, get a liver transplant, then drink some more
Wet brain never felt so good
Consume, consume, consume!
Fill me up!
The hole is vast inside me and needs to be replaced
I lust for the next hole to fill
I cum and the emptiness rattles my soul
Am I animal?
Am I human?
Instant gratification directs my purpose
Just one fix, just one trick, I want it now, hurry up, and quick
I am carbonated sugar
I am the 12th cup of coffee
I am the meth lab
I am the bomb that killed the spirit
I am the bomber that pushed the button
I am the inspiration that made the bomb
I am everything that’s wrong
I am the sin that hides in the dark
I am the sweat on the stripper’s pole
I am the case full of crisp blood money
I am the next murderous thought
I am the razor blade that cut the throat, I am the food that made me choke