Broken wings

I care about so little
And most of those things
Are all the things you care about
And I lost you
I lost you
You...
Now I'm sitting here crying
Sitting here dying inside
Like beetroot
Hurting inside
Feeling like I was put on this earth
To suffer in-si- lence
I'm not strong...
Like a Raven with broken wings
I'm falling
Failing to look up
....
Hold me tight and squeeze me like a python grip ever tightening like you're trying to stop my last breath of life from leaving...
I'm pleading
With my arm up like like wings stained from bleeding
... Sunsets are saddening
..... Don't hold me through the night, it's exhausting... rather just talk to me me, silence my demons that haunt me cause your voice is like the milky way... It lights up my night....
I lost you cause of my depression
I'm narcissistic
I'm a romantic
That was evident from my first impression
I'm frantic
And eccentric
But you can feel my sincere compassion
...
They say don't put all your eggs in one basket
But I love like I don't want to love another...
Maybe that's why I suffer
It's not your fault but my own
...
The worst thing is losing something you don't want to whist trying everything you possibly and impossibly can not to, to not lose it and still lose it...
...
Feel like I'm stuck digging a tunnel with the walls collapsing behind me... So I don't know if I'm going forward or just going in circles like a loop...
What you saw in me I don't know
... But I know I lost you cause I didnt want to lose you
Like finding an ember in the snow while it's raining and you wanna gave it too much oxygen and killed it....
...
Are my wings broken or have I been this way so long that I just don't believe they work anymore?