WISHES AND APOLOGIES

how i wished  
you were someone else  
wished you were  
someone i wanted  
wished you were her  
wished you were just...  
different  
 
how lonely i was  
how much i wanted  
to love you  
to want you  
to see in you  
what i saw in her  
 
to see in you  
what you saw in me  
 
how i wished  
it was her  
who loved me  
wished she  
cared as much for me as you did,  
wished she wanted me  
like you  
 
and how we'd try  
keep trying  
me coming  
and going,
your door  
always open  
 
and how sorry  
i am  
i did that  
hurt you like that  
how much i wish  
i'd been a kinder  
better man  
how i'd take it back  
if i could