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IDEATIONS
every night i point a finger at my skull
and pull an imaginary trigger
"BOOM!"
sometimes
i imagine my fingernail
is a razor
and drag it
across my radial pulse
last night
i pushed the accelerator
to the floor
and watched the needle climb
i waited for the blue light
before i turned the wheel
and headed for a tree
that way i didn't have to die alone
and pull an imaginary trigger
"BOOM!"
sometimes
i imagine my fingernail
is a razor
and drag it
across my radial pulse
last night
i pushed the accelerator
to the floor
and watched the needle climb
i waited for the blue light
before i turned the wheel
and headed for a tree
that way i didn't have to die alone
Published 11th Aug 2021
| Edited 12th Aug 2021
Author's Note
I take my ideations with a grain of salt.
I'm going for old age.
I'm hoping for the best.
I'm going for old age.
I'm hoping for the best.
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11th Aug 2021 5:27pm
For a moment you put me gasping...then, thankfully the OMG left. Great write. Hugs and peace, O
11th Aug 2021 5:37pm
11th Aug 2021 11:15pm
12th Aug 2021 1:12pm
Time will have her way with us, and then she'll do us in.
The bitch.
Thanks for reading, my friend.
Always an honor.
The bitch.
Thanks for reading, my friend.
Always an honor.
11th Aug 2021 11:32pm
This is pretty raw, Jav.
There is a kind of layering in this
piece that I like. For me, it’s a juxtaposition between order and chaos.
There is a kind of layering in this
piece that I like. For me, it’s a juxtaposition between order and chaos.
12th Aug 2021 1:19pm
The elements in what we write that we don't intend or even see might speak loudest.
Thanks for your interesting comment, Eerie.
I'm glad you liked my poem.
J
Thanks for your interesting comment, Eerie.
I'm glad you liked my poem.
J
12th Aug 2021 4:36am
Dear J,
There’s raw truth and then there’s raw truth. This as honest and real as it gets. I really appreciate this write because there are many moments when there’s is a split second of should I or shouldn’t I take that plunge. I find relief in your authors note. That grain of hope…thank you. H🌷
There’s raw truth and then there’s raw truth. This as honest and real as it gets. I really appreciate this write because there are many moments when there’s is a split second of should I or shouldn’t I take that plunge. I find relief in your authors note. That grain of hope…thank you. H🌷
12th Aug 2021 1:22pm
Thanks for reading and commenting, Honoria.
I keep looking for this quote from Kurt Vonnegut, but I think it's buried in an essay somewhere and not available online. Maybe I just dreamed it.
He was talking about how he imagined killing himself a lot, and often during even mild discomfort or inconvenience, but would likely never follow through.
I might share that tendency with Kurt, and I wonder how many people do.
Thank you again.
J.
I keep looking for this quote from Kurt Vonnegut, but I think it's buried in an essay somewhere and not available online. Maybe I just dreamed it.
He was talking about how he imagined killing himself a lot, and often during even mild discomfort or inconvenience, but would likely never follow through.
I might share that tendency with Kurt, and I wonder how many people do.
Thank you again.
J.
