Turning dark

Am I trying not to loose my self or am I trying not to change? There is something in me that's different I don't feel the same. Is it because I finally found my self or is it because I'm finally gone? Did the darkness in the world finally drowned out my light or is this just a way for me to shine more bright?    I'm confused, I'm alone in the dark I've lost my love for light.
I'm honestly repulsed by anything that's bright. I don't know why I feel this way. I don't know how long these feelings will stay.
Maby they'll just fade away or maby now I'm stuck this way.
All I know is for now I'm goth, I'm not sure how long  I will be.
But now I really feal like my self so maby this is me.