Speechless (2012)

The closest I ever came to love
Was with the girl 5 doors to the left
Of my old place, when I first met her
She swept me off my feet
If anyone could hear it
They would dance to the beat
Of my heart
Which paced faster than that Bolt Usain.
Some days later you was like
"Kapulwa, Hey"
And I was like
💭Damn! She knows my name! 💭
"Uh, hey!"
I couldn't say much at the time
I was too shy to make her mine
Too weak, that's true
Too scared to know
If she wanted me too
Be it flying, walking on water
All that I could do
What was Impossible
Was ending up with you

See

A crush can be a blessing
A crush can be a curse
While I was tripping and fessing
She never knew she met me first
Me and Her? Felt impossible
Sometimes it felt like destiny
Only conclusion plausible
Is that it wasn't meant to be

I had never been so jealous before
About that I can't lie
It hurt seeing her with guy after guy
Was passive with "WhatsHisFace"
As for the Spider, I wanted it dead
Pissed me off to no end
When I was the intermediary
between her and Craig
Because she was all that was in my head thought about her over and over again.

My stomach would do a back flip
whenever I'd hold her.
Did she know how I felt?
of course, I told her.
but she didn’t feel the same
sometimes I felt as if it was all just a game.
She was tickling my emotions,
did I drink some kinda love potion?
That made her freeze time around me.. make things move in slow motion?
All that commotion just made me wish I could leave.
so that I could put some distance and have space to breathe.

See

A crush can be a blessing
A crush can be a curse
While I was tripping and fessing
She never knew she met me first
Me and Her? Felt impossible
Sometimes it felt like destiny
Only conclusion plausible
Is that it wasn't meant to be

I Wonder

Did you even know what you used to do? just every time you'd step into the room? causing me to freeze, even afraid to move?
coz id make a lil mistake that would prove..
that I aint for you, that I’m just a clumsy foo'..
 who lacked self-confidence in his ability to woo
the girl of his dreams, and yes I’m talking about you
yeah, I was weak, I admit it’s true…

Did you know from the start that I wanted to be more than your friend?
 Did you know that I used to Pray for my feelings for you to end?
Did you know that I hoped that one of us would move away?
So that contact between us would get distant and my feelings would gradually pass away?

Today.. 3 years on
My feelings for you are dead and gone.
 and so am I…thousands o miles away
 I thank God I didn’t stay
coz I think I woulda continued chasing shadows, running in a circle, looking for corners.
Stranded on a distant island afraid to cross borders.
 Maybe I still feel for you, maybe Im wrong. Maybe that’s the reason im writing this song.
Maybe I just cant tell coz its been so long. but what I know now is that I aint weak, im strong.
I aint shy, I aint speechless, im Out Spoken
I tell it like it is, and I doubt my heart will ever be broken
I know exactly what kinda girl I wanna fall in love with and when I meet her I wont hesitate..
 to make my feelings known to her and to make any lil spark detonate..
 into full blown fireworks like The USA's 4th of July
and I'd do anything and everything for her…No Lie.

KP23