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Muddy Water
each moment before this one, considered;
thoughtless, wordless lonely minutes
churning out silent days in reflection
and guarded anticipation
yet, I am no better off now
for having passed them under the guise
of relentless rebuilding;
brand new, but no better off at all
still bringing savage accusations
against my own character
on your behalf, just in case
you’ve not noticed my imperfections
and, lest I should be forgotten
in the familiar, painful ways
I have always been forgettable,
I remain compelled to remind you of me
I’ve acted too boldly, perhaps; as if
the outcome can be held, even loosely
within these empty hands,
simply because my heart is so full
cautiously awaiting the solid answers
to questions I’ve stopped asking;
though the message reads clear enough,
my acceptance is muddy water
thoughtless, wordless lonely minutes
churning out silent days in reflection
and guarded anticipation
yet, I am no better off now
for having passed them under the guise
of relentless rebuilding;
brand new, but no better off at all
still bringing savage accusations
against my own character
on your behalf, just in case
you’ve not noticed my imperfections
and, lest I should be forgotten
in the familiar, painful ways
I have always been forgettable,
I remain compelled to remind you of me
I’ve acted too boldly, perhaps; as if
the outcome can be held, even loosely
within these empty hands,
simply because my heart is so full
cautiously awaiting the solid answers
to questions I’ve stopped asking;
though the message reads clear enough,
my acceptance is muddy water
Published 13th Jul 2021
Author's Note
Written for the Poet and Didn’t Know It comp, using the last text I sent “though the message seems clear enough, my acceptance is muddy water.”
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2nd Aug 2021 3:29pm
7th Aug 2021 7:18pm
It takes real art and skill to take a text and transform it into a wonderful verse. It's insightful and reflective with a whole lot of honesty.
Great work.
Great work.
Anonymous
- Edited 12th Sep 2021 00:45am
15th Aug 2021 6:45pm
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