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What Is Happening To Me
Sometimes when I breathe I think that I am taking air from others
who deserve it more than I do
I know there is plenty of air, but it doesn’t stop
…. The tears from flowing
When I mow the grass I think about how painful it must be
To be sliced in half by a sharp steel blade
…. Who the fuck thinks like that
When I see beautiful women on TV and movies
I think that if I could meet them they would see what a nice person I am
We would fall in love, get married, and I would be happy
I know it’s crazy, and I tell myself to stop thinking like that
…. But I can’t
I never think about the afterlife
But there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about what it must feel like to die
…. God help me
I seem to remember when
I had a family that was important
I had a job that was important
That saving money for next month’s house payment was important
But now I don’t know if that was real or a dream
…. It must have been a dream
I am falling into a hole filled with
Pain, Tears, Screams, Indignity
The only question is if I will be dead by the time I hit bottom
…. What is happening to me?
who deserve it more than I do
I know there is plenty of air, but it doesn’t stop
…. The tears from flowing
When I mow the grass I think about how painful it must be
To be sliced in half by a sharp steel blade
…. Who the fuck thinks like that
When I see beautiful women on TV and movies
I think that if I could meet them they would see what a nice person I am
We would fall in love, get married, and I would be happy
I know it’s crazy, and I tell myself to stop thinking like that
…. But I can’t
I never think about the afterlife
But there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about what it must feel like to die
…. God help me
I seem to remember when
I had a family that was important
I had a job that was important
That saving money for next month’s house payment was important
But now I don’t know if that was real or a dream
…. It must have been a dream
I am falling into a hole filled with
Pain, Tears, Screams, Indignity
The only question is if I will be dead by the time I hit bottom
…. What is happening to me?
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