where were you (round two)

I searched for you  
by my love you couldn't be found  
I decided to poke around  
in the past before you and me  
that where I found the ugly  
it was total unexpected
everything began to make since  
at 12 a Victoria secretes fashion show  
put on by her aunt for uncle Joe
no sexy nighties for me  
the first a broken trust
she taught her how to masturbate
behind closed doors
then at sixteen a predator of twenty three
a cherry picker was his  
no commitment just a cherry thing  
the came me caring loving  
not knowing how broken was she  
her heart her body and personality
our courtship and engagement
was what for the most part ordinary
the love we made was a little off
I thought it was a unmarried thing  
it never came our wedding night  
the past had her held tight  
so tight she didn't realize.  

where were you(round three)
 
I found you after 23 years
of pushing pressing and reliving
till you finally started revealing
those parts that left the ugly marks
you were the victim of those you had trust
a victim of a statutory rapist that got you drunk
we found what held your love back
the lack of trust that you should have found
you now love me undoubtedly
the love I wish for is now knocking on my door