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How does it feel mom?
How does it feel mom?
It must hurt.
No!
It must ache.
Does it?
You can tell me mom, you can tell me how it feels.
How does it feel mom, to have raised a child so susceptible to the world?
How does it feel mom, to have the warmth of my spit slipping down your cheek?
How does it feel mom, when I ash my cigarettes on your soft skin?
When I inhale this cigarette does your throat burn too?
When the tobacco sits on my tongue, do you taste it too?
How does it feel mom, to have heard my hymen tear too early?
How does it feel mom, to watch me consume jagged stones and scream as I swallow them?
How does it feel mom, to have raised a mute?
How does it feel mom, follower of Christ, to have raised a condemned child?
How does it feel mom, to have shards of my bones stuck between your teeth?
How does it feel mom, seamstress of this filthy body, to watch me decay?
How does it feel mom, my dearest mother, my selfless protector,
to have failed at raising the dead?
-Megan Sage Smith
It must hurt.
No!
It must ache.
Does it?
You can tell me mom, you can tell me how it feels.
How does it feel mom, to have raised a child so susceptible to the world?
How does it feel mom, to have the warmth of my spit slipping down your cheek?
How does it feel mom, when I ash my cigarettes on your soft skin?
When I inhale this cigarette does your throat burn too?
When the tobacco sits on my tongue, do you taste it too?
How does it feel mom, to have heard my hymen tear too early?
How does it feel mom, to watch me consume jagged stones and scream as I swallow them?
How does it feel mom, to have raised a mute?
How does it feel mom, follower of Christ, to have raised a condemned child?
How does it feel mom, to have shards of my bones stuck between your teeth?
How does it feel mom, seamstress of this filthy body, to watch me decay?
How does it feel mom, my dearest mother, my selfless protector,
to have failed at raising the dead?
-Megan Sage Smith
Published 31st May 2021
Author's Note
The wonderings of a daughter to her mother. Too unutterable to speak aloud.
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
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2nd Aug 2021 8:25pm
Thank you for your rawness and honesty. I hope that writing it was a healing experience for you. Maybe she isn't as disappointed as you think? If so, I hope you feel loved and accepted by others in your life.
