late night thoughts

    
   
   
    day to day; a neutral state; sitting or laying some place; whether room, porch; contemplating this "simulation";    
   
or in a state of mental flux....or feeling stuck; or just sitting there with thoughts that come and go at whatever pace if at all....or just in the moment....    
   
but.... at times like right now.... it just feels weird to exist; tv on, yet there's nothing at the moment of interest....    
   
what to do, what to do; sleep bug hasn't bit yet.... I just want to lay here, close my eyes and awaken into a "different life"(a worth while reality)