Ranting  'N'  Raving

All I've known since I've been alive.
My world started turning to shit after January 14, 1985.
Mama got hit walking on the side of the highway.
Don't know why this had to happen, why on that day?
It was foretold by God Almighty.
We all gotta die.
I'm ready.
Ready to exit.
Just don't wanna die sitting on the toilet dropping a shit.
Life isn't grand, it isn't joyful.
Not for me.
It once was.
Not anymore.
I hate life, i really hate it.
Life isn't what you make it.
Life is what it is.
Your either dealt a good hand or one that consists of pure shit.
I don't love my life anymore.
I just don't wanna fight for life anymore.
Don't care to live no more.
Wanna go to where there's nothing but eternal love.
None of that exists while breathing here.
My death i won't, i don't fear.
God, put this in high gear.
Take my life of depression out of here.
I know my end is near.
I promise God, i won't shed any tears.
When i die, that'll be an excellent year.
Take me out.
That i shout.
Never to pout.
God, I'll never doubt.
You my lord my god that's all life is about.
I desperately need your assistance with my predicament, lord.
I once used to live by the sword.
Now in my misery of my life, i am bored.
Life isn't what you make it.
Life is the cards your dealt.
Your either born rich or poor.
Life is the gamble.
The gamble of life.
Don't agree?
Fuck it, don't agree.
You do you.
Just like i do me.
The struggle is real for most.
I've been in that struggle since 10/20/73.
Ranting 'N' Raving
Ranting  'N' Raving
Too much misbehaving.
Used to be a real low life P.O.S
That had no love for anyone, let alone my damn self.
Now 30 years later I'm not that individual anymore.
I have more love for my fellow man or wo-man than i do myself.

Is there not one amongst you who can relate to this pain i feel constantly?
This unbearable weight crushing my chest.