My son

My world of dark and ugly all goes away
When i hear his voice mothers instincts
A very hard choice but my son deserved
More than i could be as an addict
Hes the only reason i have faith
In a higher power hes the beauty in this world
My heart breaks when i think of all my mistakes
I am all a river of emotion when it seems ill get to visit
Drug free is the only prerequisite
I miss him so bad hes the only light my life had
Im scared to death i can barely catch my breath
Please god dont let his dad be lieing
God i am truely trying
Please god break his heart or open it
Please dont have me start hopin and have him not be legit