Though, real fast

I'm feeling like letting go
Please if you still love me just let me know
It doesn't have to be like before
I know you moved on and now your really strong
But some where in the back, I crashed and I cant get up from that
And the fact is life isn't asking if im ready
its just gonna keep going not caring if my balance is steady
My heads already cloudy, and I cant let demons out of me
You can tell me you forgive me, ill never forgive myself I feel like pigmy
Im crying so hard right now, and in life im trying so hard right now
ANd its so hard to get out, when the scars are the reminder about
The everything and why I will forever be locked in insanity
And the part that kills me, is no I have to forget, no sorrys after this
Because lifes moving fast as shit, soon I will not have a single soul know
I dont want to socialize humans are the epitome of ignorance its no surprise
But knowing you wont be in my life, no contact no words, just the insight
Of memory, im trying not to let it get to me, if does im no better
But weather seems, it hinder me, and reality cuts deep
I feel disgusting, but i wish you can feel the emotions i have right now
Tears hit the keyboard, and the splash couldn't be any louder right now.
To be honest, I really didn't feel like showing you this
Knowing life could get better then this, but since
It is the end, forgetting you will all depend
Standing at the edge of the earth asking if i could get another chance again
I feel like im ramblin' but know my heart pumps acid, when I think back when, but I ruined at all
just when I think im going to land on my feet life comes and ruins my fall
Now thats all I could do is stare at four walls, and watch time tick
Only sending subliminal messages that the world goes on and its sick
I wish ... Ohh do I wish, the timeless memory's that I have to keep
When happiness for us was at its peek, now look at me....
Time to move on, hope I myself stays strong