Mind and I

He asks, “What are you thinking?”
I dig deep into the recesses of my mind.  
Leave me to it,  
In the silence it gets too loud.  
Overbearing, all consuming.  
I can’t make it stop.  
My feet seem to be tied to weights underwater,  
Nothing seems to keep me afloat.  
I speak,but I am screaming.  
I smile but I am choking.  
My mind fields are minefields,  
My eyes,vacant.    
I am here and halfway there.  
The mind is powerful,it can lift you up to heights you have never measured before  
And drop you,in an instant, at the speed of 600km/hr    
Shattering your feeling of self worth.
The spaces between the lines and images I don’t want to explore  
My mind wants to think about it but I am torn  
I am looking to switch it off but I can’t  find the switch  
Instead I switch from thought to thought,pacing every room I fear to enter.  
At the end of it all,I say,”Nothing”.