hypersexual

there was a time my body was violated
then it went to playing and hurting myself sexually
some days i just want to be hibernated
this became habitually

i would have sexual relations with my toys
i felt this overwhelming urge i couldn't control
i had to hump the floor i could stop i couldn't silence the noise
i was stuck in this black hole

to pleasure myself, it felt dirty and wrong
so i would hide under my covers
even being completely naked would feel weird
i keep thinking about when will i ever recover

now these days i say its ok i am free
at times i still feel shame
i can be who i want to be
this is so lame

the urges do take over me
i have more control now im so proud
for i am the key
to my freedom no more dark clouds

now im strong
so many things i tried to hide
the ones that hurt me they were wrong
i have never lied

no i cant take back the power that was stolen
i wont take it and stay down
i am good i am golden
i am queen see my crown

now its my choice
im silencing the noise
i have me own voice
to say what i want or what i dont