The Truth

 

As I wait to pierce the mystic veil, my eyes betray me as to what is real.
Visitors come to give me a glance, as to whats across that great expanse.
I fear not the end but the transition, from this life to what lays beyond,
a journey of wonderment and terror, a young life soon to be gone.

Friends long since passed, mouths binded from telling truths,
Sad eyes reveal that its coming soon, aboard that ship, I must travel.
The ferryman awaits my arrival.
Everyday I wake seems surreal, mistakes revealed, the future i'll never create.

Love surrounds me, questioned by my fate, selfishness abounds, a battle to be in my life,
the one to be by my side as I take one last breath, and say good night.
As they try to justify their own dreams and losses, measured by the kindness shown to me in my plight.
Am I just a reason for them not to face their own strife.

I try to find comfort in others sadness, try to make sense of what's happening,
I try to be a man worth knowing, loving, remembered.
But my fear overtakes all lucid thinking, I drive them away because I think that's what their asking.
Blinded by lies of a world unknown, crying, pleading, for them to help me, but I give no voice to my call.
I allow my demons, the darkness to overcome me, i give in to guilty pleasures of pity, to a life so petty.

And as i lay here upon my bed of denial, as death whispers promises of peace, with no trial,
I wonder why i'm alone, why love is gone and I face betrayal,
and then I realize while i'm being led down that last ethreal mile,
all I had to do was SMILE!