Scars

I've sinned
I've been sinned against
I've grieved
Times and times again

I've made mistakes
Pained;
but faked I'm great

I've take the blame
For ah hearty sake
Put my heart at stake
burnt the steaks
licked the icing
and left the cake

I've lived with snakes
Caged in their toxic jail
Bear their poisonous ache
But still lived till date

my dream got raped
right before I wake
My love-filled way
Plagued
and erased
off this worldly page

I carry scars
from fights with pals
to feuding with fam'
but most fights are
buried in my heart

I've been tossed; some tons
Or maybe a thousand more
Told...
I don't...
know how to love
Nothing seems enough
to proof I'm not so dumb
Like they thought me of

I have regrets
Held my breath
Wishing I'd be whisked by death
Screamed for help
That I never get
lost the friends
I can't forget
Yes; and then
I met another friend
Who makes it feel like hell

I've script a lot of rhymes
From "Home in the heart"
To this rhyme titled "Scars"
And none has been featured high

I've lived
and learned
did my best
to feel like; yea....
everyone else
But damn!
life sometimes feels like hell

I've been defaced
feel betrayed
People's expectation; I've failed
along the way,....
still got debts to pay

Anyway;
Like BigPun would say....
It's not too late
to start again
And this time I pray
I won't be degrade
From breaking the chains