Schizophrenia

Schizophrenia (inspire by Dreezy)

All this pain I have inside I'm trying to manage it ,I think I'm going crazy what have
 I become I don't know who I am anymore.
 I'm missing me searching for
love but I don't trust no one
 and I don't know who I can trust.
 I think I'm going schizophrenia
I'm trying not to let my thoughts get the best of me but they are driving me deeper in this hole.
I am dreaming of a woman who will have the whole world in her hands but in the mirror all I see is myself.
I've been hurt by people never met me  any good  n I have protected people who just stab me in the back.
 I tune out all of these haters but I am facing the pressure my depression, anger and frustration deception, isolation
 if I open up please don't judge me I just want someone to love me unconditionally.
I've been running from the truth too long I am lost I need some direction.
But the  friends that I thought  had my back became my enemies.
I'm so out of breath I need a second to catch it , when you  see and feel that light and become happy but when you have been  so neglected and rejected it’s so hard to just forget it and to forgive anyone.
Everyone is just looking at me, I'm trying to find my way back home..
 I feel like I am going crazy so maybe everyone should stay the heck back.
 I must be out of my dare mind because I am definitely running  out of time. I am just trying to find myself in all  this chaos in my head.

~©butterfly~