A Private Man

I'm a private man,      
But I've opened myself up on here?        
I seem to be more honest with myself        
As I approach my twilight years...        
But I'm happy about that to be honest (lol)    
I'm glad that I'm finally me        
Not someone who tries to fit in any more        
For that's the way I used to be...        
        
But I guess that's what we all did?        
Especially whilst in our youth        
Now I dont care what anyone says or thinks        
And that's the absolute truth...        
I just want a peaceful life        
All i want to be is a happy man        
I'm 95% happy as I could be        
Truthfully, I'm content mostly as I am.        
         
But I'm more aware or my mortality          
And I dont want to be alone any more        
I may only have 25 years left on earth        
Yet there's so much I still need to explore        
I dont see the point of pussy footing around        
Not at my age, although recently I've been afraid But why should we care what others think?        
When I believe in all the things that I've said...        
         
Nothing matters more than love to me,      
Genuine love, not love from my loins...        
But spirit and mind, character and soul        
Not just a rumble from my groins...        
I want to fall in love with a mind        
I want to fall in love with a soul        
I want to fall in love with a good heart        
Love that's beyond my control.        
         
I'm not wasting any more time from now on        
Early "lovers" wasted the youth in me        
I lost so much time spent with the wrong woman Yet it took a while to become mentally free...        
But I am now, trust me, my mind is clear        
Never do my memories stray        
If it wasn't for her I'd not have found another        
One who I know I'd never betray...        
         
That's all I want now , that's all I need        
I'm not playing games with my life any more        
All I want is genuine trust        
And this woman who I truly adore...        
That would make my life complete        
All of a sudden I'd feel fulfilled          
No more games, not at my age        
Just good foundations on which I can build...      
         
xxxx