They just dont get it!!!

thinking about what comes next is the hardest part of this
my house is not a home
my life is not alive
dreamingof the nice life
when does the tears finally stop falling?
when does the knife get a break?
When do the scars finally heal?
i make them stop and i fight back
im tired of what i see in the mirror
change is easier said than done
what have i become?
what will i grow to be?
everyone thinks they know
but they havent got a clue!