I don't know

I'm alone in this world
No one to go to
Got nothing left to do
Might as well as become a ghost
It's hard to make up the things that you have lost
Got no feelings and cause
I'm just lost, lost, lost
I try to be more
But I just end up a bore
I try to give
But I always get nothing back
I hope I get a heart attack
Maybe the world will go black
At least in my eyes it is
I want to live, live, live
But then I want to die, die, die
I'm slowly confusing myself
Can't ask for help, help, help
Cause I don't want to be a burden on anyone else
Here I am writing all my feelings
Cause I can't even find a safe place no where else
Slowly losing my mind
Losing time, time, time
Slowly crying
Slowly dying
Slowly whining
Slowly disappearing
In to the stars
To get rid of my scars
Some where far, far , far
So here is where I start...