A Love To Die For

Death would be better than this constant pain I'm feeling; I'm so sorry as I'm writing...that I'm even still living...
 
I can't keep anything down and I'm crying at night instead of dreaming.
 
My heart is hurting and I'm having problems breathing.
 
What is life if I can't live it happily?  
I feel like I'm suffocating.
 
Why the betrayal? My soul is exposed and my spirit is breaking.
 
I've never been sooo hurt by someone I cared for sooo much;  
I just feel like disappearing.
 
It's the only way to end my sorrow;  
I'm so very tired of suffering.
 
Nobody truly loves me;  
What in the hell is the point of living?
 
I'll be gone soon; but I just wanna say before I go...that this is beyond forgiving.
 
At this point...its beyond mental condition, sexual relations or emotion.
 
I will never know love again; I will never have peace without him; no matter how hard I try...Its like I will never win.
 
Death would be better than this constant pain I'm feeling; I'm so sorry as I'm writing...that I'm even still living...