S.G.I

The struggle is real when you want something real.
I have single girl issues, let me explain how that feels.
It’s when if you’re too trusting, you’re sure to get hurt,
And if you’re indifferent, then he won’t want to put in the work.
Single girl issues, things you just can’t say,
Like, why is it that whenever I start liking someone, it never stays that way?!
Always so good when it’s new and when it’s fresh,
But give it six months, & neither of us is still impressed.
I’m going out of my way to get the excitement back,
But now he’s bored & and something tells me this ain’t where it’s at...
Single girls issues, from one “happily ever after” to the next,
Putting my heart through the motions, what a wonder it hasn’t given out yet.
Single girl issues mean me living with the double standards,
Taking indirect disrespect, while being told to be a lady and mind MY manners.
Because God forbid, I become an angry black woman, no man wants that!
Nah, just sit and suck it up, even though some men don’t know how to act.
Single girl issues, mean playing games I won’t win,
Having to compete with women more beautiful, and basically be perfect and without sin.
Wanting to be seen, validated and heard,
But niggas are just lusting and not following my words.
Single girl issues mean wanting to fuck, but having to hold out, or possibly be judged,
God forbid, I do it too soon, and end up with my name in the mud.
Single girl issues mean being tired of dating, PERIOD!
Wanting to just come home to the same man, but niggas don’t want to be serious.
Nah, they just want access to you and all that you have,
Fuck you over but able to say “we ain’t together though, so why you mad?”
So what do you do when you’re at your wits end?
When you DO want love, but are just sick of these men?
What do you do, when your heart is on it’s last leg?
When you know what you want, but you’re too damn proud to beg?
With single girl issues, you just get the short end of the stick
So many trials and tests, you start to be sick!
Sick of the games and sick of the lies,
Sick of falling for someone then, OOPS! SURPRISE!
People aren’t who they say, and sometimes it’s hard to tell,
Won’t know it til your heart is in it, but you’re being taken through hell.
Single girl issues for me, is having more DMs than I can count.
All from niggas who won’t see my worth, no matter how high the amount.
Single girl issues are getting tired of opening your heart,
You can be smart, beautiful and successful... but when it comes to finding love you trip and fall apart.
Learning lessons the hard way, with discredited intuition,
Because love is what your heart desires, and now you’ve got tunnel vision.
Let downs, broken promises and bullshit become the new norm,
Before you know it, you’re looking in the mirror, totally reformed.
Eyes lose their glimmer, step loses pep,
Just about ready throw in the towel, but you tell yourself not yet.
Single girl issues can change you, and in no good way,
Turning bitter & resentful, you grow colder by the day,
So what do you do, when you feel like God is punishing you?
If you could see your own heart, for sure it’s barely beating, and it’s black and blue.
These single girl issues are very much my own, I’m not speaking for everyone.
So my advice to myself is to drown in self love, and make myself number one.